I am almost 17. I want my bridge pierced. But my mother wont let me till I am eighteen. >_> It sucks.
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Published by I_is_jack: 3:42 PM
Updated On: 4/25/2006 at 3:44 PM
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I have a boyfriend and he is hott. And he is 19 years old and I am almost 17. This is all so exciting. I am fine for now. I know I have not put up a different post in awhile. So.........Here it is. I have my brow pierced now too. And I have a tattoo.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
My home life is going to hell, I feel so lonely all the time. I feel like no guy would ever want me. I feel like all my friends are abondoning me. I feel guilty for things that are in the past and I should have gotten over them by now. I feel stupid, and fat, and ignorant. I feel like a whiner because im whining to you about my problems. A lot of people out there seem to think I have no probelms and im perfect, but if they could see this email they would know better. I want to give up always but I cant......
This is typed by me.....to somebody In an email. This is how I truly feel....
I am unsure of things in my life right now. I dont know who my friends are anymore, and I get insanely depressed. I love a guy. I am almose certain he is the one. The one I will spend the rest of my life with. Only.....perhaps he doesn't feel the same. We were seperated for far too long. But I am still absolutely certain he is the one for me. I love him with all my heart body and soul. Maybe im being too obsessive.....
~D~
 
Thursday, September 08, 2005
I moved to Oregon. I am gone from the most beautiful Alaska.I miss it there already. My best friend in the whole world, Melissa, lives there. I love her to death. She is the one who who makes me pull my head out of my ass whenever I f*ck up. I am seeing all my friends again down here, but we have all grown apart. I'm not saying they're not my friends, just we're not as close as we used to be. And I still haven't seen Tim. I have been looking, but to no avail. I miss him a whole lot. You's think It would be easy trying to find him. Afterall, We're in one building. But it's way bigger than you think. I shall call him today. I wonder what he's doing right now. 
~Dana~
I have been crying a lot today. This guy that i knew and used to sit next to me in Biology died. He was riding his dirt bike and he either got hit by a car or he flew off the bike when he hit some loose gravel and got ran over. Either way he was tangled up in the axel of the car. I guess it was a gory mess. When i heard the ambulence that day i was on the bus going home and i prayed that it wasnt somebody i knew or loved. i guess God didnt get that prayer. His name was Yaro. He was russian. Long live Yaro.
~Dana~
My boyfriend might be moving to Willow. I will miss him if he does. I love him and I will me bitterly depressed if he leaves. I think he might be the one. Though I cant honestly be sure because I am still super young. And Brad (My boyfriend) wants to find whoever he is going to spend the rest of his life with now. I kinda wish it were me....
~Dana~
Yeah, I tried to give bvllod only they ended up giving me 2 himotoma's in each arm. So basically both my arms are going to be REALLY REALLY bruised for awhile. and i ended up not even giving any blood.
Oh, well. I cant say i didnt try. Its going to look like someone was beating on me~~ lol
~Dana~
I am supposed to be happy because my 16th birthday is tomorrow, but im not happy because my best friend in the whole world is not happy. i am upset!!!
God, I feel like nobody understands me. Its like you say something and your talking in a different language completely. its sad. why do i have to do through this whole teenage depression thing? cant i skip this oh joyful part? GRRRRRR, i just want to be left alone. is that too much to ask for? Apparently so...........
~Dana~
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
I have me a new man. His name is Sam. We gonna Have fun 
I am going to have a nice weekend.  I am going to this concert tonight. t'will be fun!! things shall happen. I am meeting a guy who i have only met over the phone before. but im not scared because a lot of my close friends shall be there.  laters my peopld.
Dana
Friday, February 18, 2005
Man,
I keep going through guys like tampons. I like another guy. His name is Nate. He is pretty cool. (or else i wouldnt like him!!)
But I need to back off because he has a girlfriend and I know I would like it if I had a boyfriend and some bitch was trying to come on to him. So, for now, I will back the f*ck off!!
Dana
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Well, not as screwed as I though I would be. Only grounded for a month. And i'm still allowed to watch tv. Could be worse. I have a HUGE headache right now. and Im bored. It bites.
Dana
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
I'm f*cked. I mean It this time. Well, maybe It's not that bad. I got caught skipping school yesterday. I tried to lie, but they (My mean 'rents!!) already knew. Grrrrr, and that was my first time skipping school too. well, I mean a whole day of school. I've skipped a class here and there. I've never skipped a whole day.
Dana
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Jeremy is cute. he gave me my first ride on a sled. and we made out. I wanted to do more, but was too stoned to do anything but sit there. but when we we're making out, my eyes were closed and since i was stoned it felt like he was trying to eat my face. i had to open my eyes just to make sure he wasnt!!! it was crazy as f*ck. i hate my dad. hes an abusive asshole. i also wanna go to an alternative school. burchell, its called. i dont kow if my asshole dad will let me, though.
Dana
P.S fill you in on what happens with Jeremy later!! lol
Thursday, January 13, 2005
I am not very happy right now. I am kind of pissed off. Its all this guys fault at school. He's such an asswipe.I wanna die. Death seems like a good possilility. If i die, will i be missed? Hm....that is something to think about. I gave my neighbor a bloody nose last night. I didnt mean to. we were wrestling and he threw me to the ground and he tried to run, then I tripped him and he nailed his nose on our hard wood floor.Im sitting next to a guy right now and im pretty sure hes gay. I think he will get a boyfriend. I dont ahve a boyfriend anymore. I had my friend Tiffany dump him for me. I need a boyfriend, not a f*cking stalker. My brother is gonna be 26 soon.
Dana
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
I can't take this anymore....I can't help but feel this way towards him....I don't know why and I can't avoid it. he may not look like a kid but he IS a kid and I have to keep that in mind....but everytime he's near me I forget all about it. I find him so cute and so funny. but I just can't go out with him....It would be totally wrong. I know it would be wrong. but when I see him, life feels right. this kid is like 3 almost 4 years younger than me. It is ILLEAGAL. plus, all my friends would diss me If I did date him. and I have decided to follow my brain not my heart. if it were ten years from now things would be TOTALLY different. but It's not.......
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
home situation is better. i am back at home.i knew they would get back together though! (my 'rents) i have nothing really to say. Peace
D
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
I no longer live at home. last night my father grabbed my little brother by the neck and picked him up. if that aint child abuse, I dont know what is. Right now Im missing my mom and Joe. Joe is the hottest guy ever. Im trying to decide wether or not I should tell somebody that my father smokes weed. The counselor that i talk to knows somethings up, and she wants me to tell her, but I cant. I wont. I dont know what to do. T, help me out please!!!!
Monday, December 06, 2004
ARG!!! I like a yonger man. he is too cute. he also happens to be my friends little bro. I have absolutely no freaking idea of what im gonna do!!! it pisses me off. Ok, my friend wants me to go out with her brother, but Im 15 and he's 14. but he just turned 14 and Im almost 16. Ok, so I've got 5 months till Im 16, but he just turned 14 in september. I still like Nathan!!!
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
I am over this one guy. or so i would hope. i think T is doing better. life is allright for now.i gots to talk to my auntie. she got left by her fat-ass boyfriend when they moved up here. Yu Gi Oh is stupid. Ruroni Kenshin is hott!
T is better, i thinky. she a misses me so much. i got some "pizza" this weekend. *wink wink*. then i got some real pizza. lmfao, you have to know the inside joke to that. later,
Dana
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
I finally got ahold of T. she is ready to kill herself and im scared to death. i dont want her to kill herself!!!! despite what she says, life is not hopeless. i mean, at times it seems like it is. you ask yourself"why am i here? what is the point of going on? what the hell am i suposed to do with my short little life?." well, life is something. just living is doing somehting great. it is....
D
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