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I work down at the Pizza Pit
And I drive an old Hyundai
I still live with my mom and dad
I'm 5 foot 3 and overweight
I'm a scifi fanatic
A mild asthmatic
And I've never been to second base
But there's whole 'nother me
That you need to see
Go checkout MySpace

'Cause online I'm out in Hollywood
I'm 6 foot 5 and I look damn good
I drive a Maserati
I'm a black-belt in karate
And I love a good glass of wine
It turns girls on that I'm mysterious
I tell them I don't want nothing serious
'Cause even on a slow day
I could have a three way
Chat with two women at one time
I'm so much cooler online
So much cooler online

When I get home I kiss my mom
And she fixes me a snack
And I head down to my basement bedroom
And fire up my Mac
In real life the only time I've ever even been to L.A
Is when I got the chance with the marching band
To play tuba in the Rose Parade

Online I live in Malibu
I pose for Calvin Klein, I've been in GQ
I'm single and I'm rich
And I've got a set of six pack abs that would blow your mind
It turns girls on that I'm mysterious
I tell them I don't want nothing serious
'Cause even on a slow day
I could have a three way
Chat with two women at one time
I'm so much cooler online
So much cooler online

When you got my kind of stats
It's hard to get a date
Let alone a real girlfriend
But I grow another foot and I lose a bunch of weight
Every time I login

Online
I'm out in Hollywood
I'm 6 foot 5 and I look damn good
Even on a slow day
I could have a three way
Chat with two women at one time
I'm so much cooler online
Yeah, I'm cooler online
I'm so much cooler online
Yeah, I'm cooler online

Yeah, I'm cooler online

Yeah, I'll see ya online



Published On: 9/12/2007
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ACDC, alice cooper, april wine, beetles, blue oyster cult, bob dylan, boston, cat stevens, ccr, guns n roses, iron maiden, judas priest, kiss, led zepplin, motley crew, black sabbath, rolling stones, skid row, van halen, velvet revolver, queen, rush, the who, poison, pink floyd, steppenwolf
 
metallica, black label society, disturbed, CKY, HIM, hatebreed, powerman 5000, rammstein, system of a down, the darkness, three days grace, trapt, hatebreed, hinder, rage against the machine, zakk wylde
 
american head charge, cradle of filth, ICP, korn, marilyn manson, rob zombie, mushroom head, slipknot, incubus, mudvayne, korn!!
 
alexisonfire, afi, atreyu, billy talent, chevelle, from first to last
 
frou frou, pinback, placebo, the shins, the postal service
 
 the postal service is my life now...but thoughtless by korn is still the best....
 
i worked a 3-11 shift yesterday and the guy of my dreams was there and couldnt even say hi! f*ck im a pussy! anyways...i was to meet this guy kyle at 3am for coffee and turns out i cant start my sled...but we live on the same street so he decided to take a drive by and sure enough...there i was with the hood up...swearing and kicking my sled...took him ten pullls to start it...no joke. i love my sled f*ck...shes stoburn and if she dont wanna do something you cant make her....sounds like me!!
so anways kyle said f*ck it leave it here, after starting it lol cause we were going to drive around anyways....so from 3am to 8am we drove around all of timmins and south end...it was awesome cause i didnt even know were i was but i knew if i saw a skidoo trail haha
there was alot of light and rich f*ckers living in castles! the best part was when he spoke Fin and i laughed and called him a loser lol.  hes got a new crossfire 700 i get to try tomorow. so anyways we went for breakfast after and i got to eat ice cream with hot fudge! and after that i whent home and passed out ...thinking of the guy i really wanna be with...dammit why is he so interesting! and the funny part is...he showed me how to get to his house on my sled lol...and he knows him and his bro!! doesnt matter....
im allowed to dream...guess i will for a long time
 


Published On: 11/13/2006
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‘BIGGER AND BETTER’ COORS LIGHT TRAUMA TOUR RETURNS TO SYLVAN LAKE FEATURING WORLD-CLASS WAKEBOARDING AND TOP MUSICAL ACTS

 
The Coors Light Trauma Tour featuring the Pro Wake Invitational returns to Sylvan Lake, Alberta this summer, and with a new two-day format, it promises to be bigger and better! Ten of the world’s top professional wakeboarders will compete for $40,000 U.S. in prize money. And there will be non-stop concert performances from the hottest bands around – it’s all part of the Solo Mobile Concert Series.
 
The Solo Mobile Concert Series will be kicking off on Friday, September 1 with a performance by Bedouin Soundclash.
 
The trio from Queen’s University in Kingston, Ontario set the Canadian music scene on fire last year with their hit single “When the Night Feels My Song” which rose all the way to Number One on MuchMusic and was the second most played song on Canadian radio in 2005. De La Soul will headline the concert series the next night.
 
Also new for 2006, is a national and international television broadcast of the Coors Light Trauma Tour in Sylvan Lake. The event will be featured on the Xtreme Channel and Fusion TV as well as OLN in the United States.
 
Canadian pro wakeboarders Chad Sharpe and Rusty Malinoski will take on the best riders in the world including Andrew Adkison of the U.S., the Pro Wakeboard Tour’s number one ranked rider. The 10 pros will battle it out on the water in three wakeboarding disciplines – “Double Up”, “Rail Rumble” and “Full Pull” – with each discipline worth $10,000. An additional prize of $10,000 will also be awarded to the best rider overall.
 
As if the action on the water and the stage isn’t enough, fans can also look forward to the high-flying stunts of the Metal Mulisha Freestyle Motocross show and the battle of the beauties for the title of Miss Trauma Tour.
 
Tickets for the Coors Light Trauma Tour featuring the Pro Wake Invitational will go on sale July 15th and will be available by calling 1-866-891-WAKE or by visiting www.prowakeinvitational.com. Last year tickets sold out fast, so don’t wait too long to get yours!
 
For a full listing of upcoming Coors Light Trauma Series events happening across Canada, visit
 www.coorslight.ca.
 
 
 


Published On: 8/11/2006
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I am soooo sad because Dusty Rose (the best, most trustworthy horse on the planet) is lame so now I can't ride her but worst of all she is in pain and the other day she could barly walk!! I don't know how long it will take or if she will ever heal!! I want her to heal so bad! Here are some pics of her (they r also in my gallery) :(  Bree :(
 
   < Dusty ^      


Published On: 7/18/2006
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So this is life in all its glory
Dont bullshi*t me with your happy story
Life is f*cked and were all trying to survive
Pain and hate found a home to thrive

In this light that was ment for hell
My heart backed up beggins to swell
Life is made up it just can't be real
Take me someplace that eye can feel

Angels of a shame filled world
find me in the corner curled
Forever eye shall rot in this dream called life
standing on the edge of this knife
This hate and pain

Eye miss the happy days eye bled for you
throw it up, take it back and chew
This is what eye am
a sea of lies eye swam

Roses wilted at the foot of my bed
they are black now what used to be red
Left there by someone who once cared
whos pain and problems once shared

Eye once agian go to the place inside my head....
 
 
 
Looking over everyone eye am your breath saying goodbye found signs of passion leading wants from pleasure and hoping eye'l still find needles stuck to remind true addiction keeps the mind inside the cutter.
 
 
My freak
caged
in the back of my mind
surrounded in a haze of hate
screaming a whisper into my brain
telling my me eye'm insane
reassuring me eye'm still dead
as eye lay rotting in bed.
 
 
And then slowly my body turns to ash, with a settle breath eye'm blown away taking back all my thoughts, leaving the light and filling with nothing a calm murder sets the mood a lifeless body walks outside the light teasing me with promises of death.
 
 
Taste my pain and eye'l poisin your soul, a disturbed desire to leave my flesh.
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind a place the light can't find once shined but now eye'm blind and eye let you back in to do it all again. walking in the dark seeing without sight living without reason.
 
 
A razor fixes all my problems
cut deep into my flesh and realise my pain
enjoy this vacation from reality
come back
the light is blurred and the floors like to fall on me
the thoughts of her are a poisin in my mind
the burning cuts and the warm comfort of blood on my skin
hate fills me, a hate for her
a web of lies, truth, the one with the gun
sinking into the dark depression, Eye Love It
my pain, Eye feed off it
Eye cling to it as if it were the very core of my being
without pain, without her eye would be blind
Eye see the world now
how dark a place it is and eye know now what must be done
the blood must touch ground, spill it and cleanse the light
murder never seem so polite
a change in me, the flow of hate slows
as my heart stops
a smile that has not been spreads across my face
as the last tear rolls off
calm, warm, happy....... bliss
my happy ending.
 
 
Eye'v lost my head again, going over every word you have ever said, why can eye remember the bad before the good.
Carved into my skin, the number is ten, trying to forget that eye can never forget, eye have not a reason to wake up from here.
Screams into the night fall to the floor, a flower growing in a pile of shi*t eye call my life, a beautiful blood red rose.
Dripping with desire eye make for my darkness door, let me down gently and go wonder off, eye leave these bloody wounds, tender and soft.
Drowning myself with memories long past, the only way left eye see to be free, black and white, twelve shades of grey.
Drawing myself with color at last.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 


Published On: 7/15/2006
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LOVE IS BLIND...

 roses are red,
nuts are brown,
skirts are up,
pants are down,
body 2 body,
skin 2 skin,
 when its stiff,
 stick it in!
Im f*ckable!!!
.x.Lose your Temper.x.
.x.You loose the fight!.x.
GoD mAdE bEeR gOd MaDe WiNe GoD mAdE mY mAn O sO fInE
.x.You can only go as far as you push.x.
 
.x.Keep your friends close.x.
.x.And your enimies closer.x.
 
.x.Dont Frown.x.
.x.As you never no whoz Falling in love with your Smile : ).x.
A MiLLi0n WoRDs Would Not Bring You Back, I Kn0w, BecauseI've Tried. Neither Would A Million TeaRs. I Know, BeCause I've Cried
.x.Written with a pen Sealed with a Kiss if your my friend then answer me this!R we friends or r we not u told me once but i 4gt so tell me now n tell me true so i can say im here 4 u of all the friends i ever met your the one i wont 4gt!And if i die b4 u do il go 2 heaven n wait 4 u id give the angels back ther wings n risk losing evrythin 4 ther is nuffn i wont do hav a friend jus like u!.x.
 
.x.When ur scared 2 look 4wrd n it hurts 2 look bck jus look bside u n ur best friend will always b ther!.x.
Best Friends Forever Till My Very Last Breath
.x.People walk in and out of our lives all the time but true friends leave footprints on the heart!.x.
Late Night Calls And Cute Photographs
.x.Sweet as heaven hott as hell the baddest bitches u can tell luvd by sum hated by many wanted by most envied by plenty diamonds r nice n so r pearls but thers nuffn like us urvin gurlz!.x.
 
 
.x.Never say i love u if its not relli ther.never tok about feelings if you dont relli care.never hold my hand if ur gna break my heart,never say your going 2 if u dnt plan 2 start,never look in 2 my eyes if all u do is lie,never say hello if u relli mean goodbye, if u mean 4 eva plz say ul try but never say 4 eva coz 4eva makes me cry!.x.
--Love is when u cant pay attention in class--


--cuz u foreva writin ur first name wit his last
.x.My friends always told me you wood make me cry my friends always told me that all ud do was lie my friends always told me ud find sum 1 new but my friends never told me that i wood always want you!.x.
 
.x.2 the world ur just 1 person but 2 me ur the world!.x.
 
.x.1 night i lay awake n matched each star with a reason i love u and i was doing great untill i ran out of stars!.x.
 
.x.im the girl ur mum warned u about.x.
 
.x.1 2 Rangers crew cumn thro!.x.
 
.x.I like ur style i like ur Class but most of all i like ur ass!.x.
Don't flatter yourself....I was looking at your friend
.x.im not supposed 2 luv u, im not supposed 2 care, im not supposed 2 spend my life wishing u were there, im not supposed 2 wonder where u r or what u do, but i guess thts just what happens when, im in love with u!.x.
DONT SAY YOU LOVE ME UNLESS U REALLY MEAN IT, CUZ I MIGHT DO SOMETHING CRAZY LIKE BELIEVE IT
.x.im a bitch n iv got class mess with me n ill kick ur ass so all u folk tht think ur cool just remember bitches rule!.x.
 
.x.im a cutie what a Bootie!.x.
 
.x.A real friend walks into your life when the rest of the world walks out!.x.
 
.x.no guy is worth crying over but when you find one who is he wont make you cry!.x.
 
.x.I love u more 2 day then yesterday but 2 moro i will luv u more!.x.(aww naww!lol)
 
.x.If u louve sum1 let them go if they dnt cum bck they wer never yours but if they do they always were.x.
God made coke god made pepsi god made DANNY so damn sexy
.x.The hardest thing to do is to watch the one u luv luv some1 else!.x.
 
.x. if ur gna kiss me dont be sassy us ur tung n make it nasty!.x.
He looked me deeply in the eyes. he lied and said "i won't make u cry" and when i thought it was 2 good 2 be true, he blew me off and found someone new
.x.Roses r Red Violets r Blue
im in love but not with you
When we broke up you thought i cried
but all you were was jus anuva guy
You told your friends that i was a trick
I told mine you had a weak dick
I said I loved you
You thought it was true
But guess what baby!
You got played too!.x.
 
.x.You laff b-coz im different I laff b-coz uz r all the same!.x.

-Last night I had a dream that I ate a giant marshmallow... in the morning my pillow was gone

Don't ever be afraid to come to me n cry Don't ever hesitate to look me in the eye Don't ever be afraid to tell me how you feel Remeber ur my gurls n we gotta keep it realL


-The worst part of walking away from you is knowing you won't come running after me

I look for a man wit a V.C.R... Very Cute Rear

-Love is when you don't want to go to sleep coz reality is better than a dream

    PICK UP LINES DON'T FCKING WORK...


-Look on the bright side... not everyone hates you as much as I do

If kisses were raindrops, i'll send u a shower,
    If Hugs Were seconds, i'll send u an hour,
    If smiles were waves i'll send u da sea,
    If Love was a person i'll send u 2me



-If all the boys lived over the sea, what a good swimmer I would be




-Don't like my attitute?... call 1800 KISS MY ASS

."ive lost my teddy bear, can i sleep wiv u instead?"

-Don't like my drivin?... get off da footpath

."im lost which way 2 ur house?"


-The way I see it is the more people that hate me, the less people I have to please

-Life is not a garden so stop being a hoe
-Shake it once, thats fine; shake it twice, thats ok; shake it 3 times and ur playing with urself again
-Wanna get laid? Crawl up a chicken's ass and w8
-Kisses have germs, germs are hated, so kiss me baby, i'm vaccinated
-Do u believe in love at first sight, or should I walk past ya again? Or should I bite
-If mirrors could talk, ur's would be laughing

-Go fetch an ice-cream from Mr Whippy
-Last night I was laying in bed, looking at the stars, then I realised where the hell is my ceiling?
-Last night I was matchin each star to a reason why I love u... I was doin alright till i ran outa starrrr
-I climed da door, shut the stairs, said my pyjamas, hopped into my prayers, turned off the bed, got into the light, all coz u said goodnight.

-You can fall from da sky, you can fall from da tree, but da best way 2 fall is in love (l) with me
-Roses r red, violets r blue, orlando is hot, and so r u
-(k) A pretty girl can kiss a guy, a bird can kiss a butterfly, da rising sun can kiss da grass, but hunnie u can kiss my ass(k)
-Im a girl, your a guy, need anymore clues? 
-Ur not worth my tears, ur not worth da heartache, I don't no y I give u da time, ur not orth da pain, ur not worth da emptiness, I don't no y but I wish u were mine
-Cats have 9 lives, humans have 1, mess wiv me an u'll have none
-Should I smile coz were frends, or cry coz dats all we'll ever b

-God made grass, god made trees, god made u... but we all make mistakes sumtimes

-Nuthin is more painful then realisin he meant everythin 2 u, u meant nothin 2 him..
-Its hard 2 tell ur mind 2 stop lovin (l) sum1 wen ur heart still does
-U laugh because im different i laugh because you're all the same
-Many people quit looking for work when they find a job.
-When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded.
-I'd explain it to you, but your brain would explode.
-If you're going my way, I'll walk with you.
-A wise monkey never monkies with another monkey's monkey

-Everyones entitled to be stupid but you are abusing the
priviledge

-Somewhere There's someone Who Dreams Of Your smile, And Finds In
Your Presence That Life Is Worth While, so When You Are Lonely,
Remember It's True: somebody, somewhere Is Thinking Of You

-Never start frowning because you never know who's falling in love with your smile :-)
-Well if I called the wrong numba, whyd you answer ?

-There's a light at the end of every tunnel, just pray it's not a train.

-It's not the size of the dog, It's the size of the fight in the dog

-To the world your just one person but to one person you could mean the world
-whats betta? a lie that draws a smile or the truth that draws a tear?
-Our eyes are placed in front because it is more important to look ahead than to look back

-would you catch me if i fall..do you even notice me.....at all?

-DONT wish UPON A STAR, REACH FOR ONE

-God created men first, cause you always make a rough draft before a masterpiece

-It is better to let someone think you are an Idiot than to open
your mouth and prove it


-I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh,
But I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry

-Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened

-If u need space join NASA baby
-Dream as if you'll live forever...Live as if you'll die

-Everyone has a photographic memory. Some just don't have film

-Give me a kiss, give me the world, give me your love and i'll be your girl. Give me a smile, give me your time, give me your love and i'll give you mine
-If it were supposed to feel good they wouldn't call it a crush
-I want you... to go away

-If you kiss me I'll kiss you, if u hug me I'll hug you, if u leave me I'll kill you.

-Since nobody's perfect, I guess I'm nobody.
-I loved you once, I love you still, I always have, and I always will

-Sarcasm keeps you from telling people what you really think of them

-They say kissing is the language of love...care to indulge in a little convo?

-When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

-No where on your birth certificate did it say life would be fair

-If you love your man set him free...if he dont come back u know hes with me

- If u drink  drive ur a bloody idiot  if u make it home ur a bloody legend

-If you can't say anythin nice... come join us

- The best way to get over a guy is to get under another one

-Hey (name here) I love you but, one problem...you don't love me

-if u were a new hamburger at McDonalds, i would name u the McVery Sexy.

-y is it EVERY1 thinks we're perfect 4 each other but ur da only 1 hu cant c dat?

-Do you have a Band-Aid cos i skinned my knee when i fell 4 you

-I'm not cryin cos he dumped me, im cryin cos i want him back

-Any guy who can put up wiv my shi*t deserves an award
-You’re a bitch on all days that end wiv y
-Don't drink water, fish have sex in it
-Is that your face or has your ass been misplaced
-u can pick your frends, u can pick ur nose, but u cant pick ur frends nose
- If you were a new hamburger at mcdonalds you would be mcgorgeous
-They say milk does the body good, DAMN how much did u drink?

-I’m trying to see things from ur point of view… but I can’t get my head that far up my ASS

-Why is it that when adults have multiple personalities it's schizophrenia, but when a child has imaginary friends it's cute?

-If the sky is the limit, then what is space, over the limit?

-When French people swear do they say excuse the English?

-Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze these dangly things here and drink what comes out"?

-Who was the first person to say, "See that chicken over there ... I'm gonna eat the first thing that comes out if its butt"?

-If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
-I like ur style, I like ur class, but most of all I like ur ass
-I luv (name), yes I do, he’s for me and not for u, and if by chance u take my place, I’ll take my fist and smash ur face

-I heard “gullible” was taken out of the dictionary
-If you could walk through the walls, wouldn’t you fall through the floor?

-If you tell a man that there are 30 billion stars in the universe, he’ll believe you. But if you tell him the park bench was just painted, he’ll have to touch it to be sure

-The last time I saw a face like yours, I threw it a banana

-I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life, wishing you were there.
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do,
I'm sorry I just can't help myself, I fell in love with you

-Can I Have A Picture Of You So I Can Show Santa What I Want For Christmas?
-Close my eyes i count 2 ten, hope u love me when I open them

-At Least Be There To Dry My Tears If You’re Gonna Make Me Cry
-Everybody Needs That Somebody, You Could Be That Somebody That Someone Needs

-Never Kiss behind The Garden Gate, Love Is Blind, But The Neighbours Aint

-If money doesn’t grow on trees, then y do banks have branches?

-I Can Be The Best Thing That Ever Happened To You, But You’ll Never Know Unless You Give Me A Chance

-If you're going to get in trouble for hitting someone, might as well hit them hard

-Why is it that when you're little your parents teach you how to walk and talk, but when you're older they tell you to sit down and shut up?

-They say love hides behind every corner...I must be walkin in circles

-ur jealousy is my energy, ever wonder y im so hyper

-When I'm good, I'm really good, but when I'm bad I'm better

-Follow your heart, but take your brain with you.

-Cry your heart out, let it all go, cuz after every tear theres a rainbow

-I loved you once ... you loved me not...I loved you twice...but I forgot......you never loved me ..you never will... but even so...I love you still

-BIrdY birdy in the sky why did u do that in my Eye, looks like sugar, taste like sap o my gosh its birdy crap

-The phone goes greeen greeen, so i pink it up and i say yellow you there? Orange you a lil shy to answer??

-Jack n Jill went up the hill to get sum marijuana, jack got high unzipped his fly and asked jill if she wanna, jill said yes unzipped her dress n then they had sum fun, stupid jill 4got her pill and now they have a son

-Love is a sensation caused by a temptation, a guy sticks his location in a gurlz destination, to increase population of the next generation, do you understand my explanation, or do u need a demonstration???

-sum guys say suck but i say im sorry ive been told its dangerous to put small objects in my mouth

-I want to write something to you........."n ssw ".............. You might wanna turn it upside down

-i wish I was a little girl again...scraped knees heal faster than broken hearts

-I wanted to kill the sexiest person alive, then I realized that
would be suicide
-When I die bury me upside down so the world can KISS MY ASS

-I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I feel and you still wouldn't understand...So now I leave without a sound except my heart shattering as it hits the ground

-B4 U Criticise Sum1 U Should Walk A Mile In Their Shooz
That Way When U Criticize Them, U R A Mile Away From Them And U Hav Their Shooz

-I’m Not Online
The Computer Is Lying 2 U

-Theres a sparkle in your eye that only i see, and theres a place in your heart where only i wanna be

-If you love me let me know...Cuz if you dont...I dont know where to go..

-For love I'd do anything, for you, I'd do more...

-You dont see men u dont need men u dont love me the way I wish u wouldThe way I know u could

-If all guys were as hot as you earth would be heaven

-Hey baby, how 'bout u come sit on my lap and we'll talk 'bout the first thing that pops up

-Why drink and drive, When you can smoke and fly

-Im falling for you ... please catch me

-Make a person happy… go away

-I don’t need your attitude I have my own

-Jealousy is a terrible disease…get well soon


Published On: 7/6/2006
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FAI Journals -(LookingOverEveryOne)-
Looking over everyone eye am your breath saying goodbye found signs of passion leading wants from pleasure and hoping eye'l still find needles stuck to remind true addiction keeps the mind inside the cutter
 
FAI Journals -(ThisIsLife)-
So this is life in all its glory
Dont bullshi*t me with your happy story
Life is f*cked and were all trying to survive
Pain and hate found a home to thrive

In this light that was ment for hell
My heart backed up beggins to swell
Life is made up it just can't be real
Take me someplace that eye can feel

Angels of a shame filled world
find me in the corner curled
Forever eye shall rot in this dream called life
standing on the edge of this knife
This hate and pain

Eye miss the happy days eye bled for you
throw it up, take it back and chew
This is what eye am
a sea of lies eye swam

Roses wilted at the foot of my bed
they are black now what used to be red
Left there by someone who once cared
whos pain and problems once shared
 
Eye once agian go to the place inside my head....

 
FAI Journals -(Desire)-
Eye'v lost my head again, going over every word you have ever said, why can eye remember the bad before the good.
Carved into my skin, the number is ten, trying to forget that eye can never forget, eye have not a reason to wake up from here.
Screams into the night fall to the floor, a flower growing in a pile of shi*t eye call my life, a beautiful blood red rose.
Dripping with desire eye make for my darkness door, let me down gently and go wonder off, eye leave these bloody wounds, tender and soft.
Drowning myself with memories long past, the only way left eye see to be free, black and white, twelve shades of grey.
Drawing myself with color at last.
 
FAI Journals -(WatchingFromTheUnderside)-
Eye'm used to walking on the other side, biting my lip so no one hears these cries for help, straight ahead into the embrace of shallow clouds. watching my body through a window in my mind, a man that is not me.
 
FAI Journals -(AloneInMyRoom)-
Alone in my room again.
my brain's bleeding thoughts again.
drowning in self pity again.
eye'm kinda wanting to die again.
holding this razor to my wrist again.
alone in my room again.
but it's time to go outside again.
time to put on this mask again.
time to smile and fake again.
waiting to be alone again.
so eye can drown again.
 
 


Published On: 7/1/2006
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Can't walk down the street
Can't sit in my room
Can't close my eyes
Without thinking of you
Can't smell a rose
Can't look at the moon
Can't take a breath
Without missing you

It's such a beautiful thing
But it doesn't make sense
Without you babe
If I could I would make you love me
If I could I would leave this place
I'm the one who could make you happy
I try so hard but I can't walk away

Why can't you be here
Why did you leave
Is it my fault
You don't love me
Why do I cry
Why don't you call
Why does it seem
You don't care at all

You don't feel a thing
I don't understand
Why I need you babe
I'm the one who could make you happy
I try so hard but I can't walk away

Get away get away
If I could I would make you love me
If I could I'd forget your face
I know I could make you happy
I try so hard but I can't get away
Get away from you



Published On: 6/2/2006
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My Blog: about me
By: Eden_


i         like         walking         in         the         rain...
it makes me chill
i like being out in thunder storms
i like the sky
stars make me feel small
i over think life everything
God exists...
i just dont believe in him
i dont sleep much
too much to see
i dont rele like fish
but ill try it all the time
i like people
i like cars too much
i could change th oil in my dads car
when i was 5
i like stupid music

i like being a girl
its 1 thing ma parents did right
i like my parents-
but just not when they are together

tank girl and che guevara are my heros
i rele do think lifes too short
i     try
i hate the dissapointment when i fail

i dont get enough sleep
i drink too much red bull
i play with my hair too much
i         like         eye         contact
i laugh too much and at the wrong time
i like to read
i have too much make up
but i dont wear very much
                      i like litrature
 
i wear skirts that people call belts
i like wearing guys shirts with jeans or skrts

i sing songs with out words
im a guys girl








i like music a lot... but who doesnt these days.. some of my favourite bands include...
bloc party kings of leon libertines maximo park the automatic babyshambles the strokes oasis we are scientists the kooks artic monkeys coldpaly the dreaming save ferris reef jack johnson the cooper temple clause the vines scars of tomorrow deftones the hives weezer feeder blink 182 ruben hoobastank the white stripes finch the verve orson analouge sway the yeah yeah yeahs the zutons prodigy head autiomatica the all american rejects eighteen visions sister hazel sugar cult the jam from first to last national product iron maiden the ramones the clash the kinks genisis areosmith jimi hendrix led zepplin ac/dc pink floyd guns 'n' roses QOTSA deep purple blur nivarna linkin park stone sour the distillers fort minor underOath biffy clyro lostprophets hwathorne heights the used anti pasti tool the mars volta cave in the 88 alexisonfire hellogoodbye the red jumpsuit apperatus music foo fighters incubus funeral for a friend bullet for my valentine atreyu MCR hell is for heros AFI CKY sum41 hole muse fall out boy panic! at the disco takeing back sunday silverstien yourcodenameis:milo elviss kill hannah plcebo death cab for cutie something corperate A stained the scene aesthetic boy kill boy box car racer alkeline trio cave in mew at the drive in kill switch engage badly drawn boy green day- pre american idiot american hi-fi raido head van morriso nash am60 bedouin sound clash velvet underground N*E*R*D yellow card red hot chilli peppers stereophonics dislocated style









Published On: 5/4/2006
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AVENGED SEVENFOLD ---theyre always #1
slipknot, system of a down, the bravery, the killers, 3 doors down, three days grace, papa roach, alkaline trio, trapt, breaking benjamin, evanescence, my chemical romance, godsmack, creed, blink 182, metallica, hoobastank, the doors, sublime, the all american rejects, korn, sum 41, crossfade, transplants, shinedown, hawthrone heights, ac/dc, guns n roses, velvet revolver, nickelback, green day, simple plan, good charlotte, MARILYN MANSON, the used, 30 seconds to mars, vaux, maroon 5, yellowcard, story of the year, the offspring, a fire inside (afi), garbage, weezer, staind, no doubt, linkin park, the mars volta, unwritten law, jimmy eat world, queens of the stone age, white stripes, the click five, goldfinger, incubus, nine inch nails, the misfits, bad religion, atreyu, a perfect circle, the calling, dead kennedys, the deftones, aerosmith, 311, disturbed, killswitch engage, foo fighters, him, mudvyane, nirvana, the strokes, chevelle, sugarcult, fall out boy, the rolling stones, taking back sunday, bon jovi, fountains of wayne, relient k, seether, nine days, and many more i forgot to mention on here.



Published On: 4/29/2006
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(feat. Cool & Dre,Fat Joe,Lil Wayne, Paul Wall,Pitbull...)

[Cool & Dre]
This is...This is
This is...AND HE GOES BY THE NAME OF

[Lil Wayne]
Yeah you got the right one, It's Weezy f*ckin Baby
And if your woman lookin, I'll let the woman taste me
Okay now I'm with Khaled, we wilyn in Miami
We got a bunch of bitches, we pile em in the phantom
They follow us to Mansion but I don't mean the club
I'm talking bout my crib, mama I'm trying to f*ck
It's Cash Money Baby, It's Young Money Biatch
Now you can swallow that or you can suck a dick
Okay, tell me shi*t, Lil Wayne f*ck a bitch
Lil' nigga, big money, big gun full of that shi*t
Nigga I ain't Will Smith, Nah, I ain't a fresh prince
Nigga I'm a young king, Nigga I'm a Bun B
Yup, I go hard, ask my broad
Miss Stevie Wonder, she ain't lookin at y'all (She can't see)
The rest goes without me having to say
I say, go, go, go, go (DJ)

[Chorus: Paul Wall]
Holla at me, What it do, What it is
You ain't never seen a playa like this (Holla at me baby)
I'm a pimp, I'll show her how I live
Take her back then I put it in her wrist (Holla at me baby)
I'm a monster, I do it real big
You ain't never seen rocks like this (Holla at me baby)
You can see me from a far I'm the shi*t
Scream at me What it do, What it is (What It Do)

[Paul Wall]
It's Paul Wall baby, Swishahouse club rocker
Chunk a deuce, sip a deuece, pourin up big goose vodka
Lone star beast straight up out the H
Sure stoppin all the hate, sippin on the ski taste
I got the I-N-S on my tail, immigration still harass
Cause they see me in a foriegn ridin on a pointed glass
Gettin cash is my number one task
Until I'm under the grass, that's why I'm top of the class
I'm a grit boy lookin for an ass like Ketoya
Leave a bitch back all nutty like Almond Joy
My boy Toy I E got to sleep
And we got to see and who got the freaks?
Beat it up like an ass whipping
The album dropped and there's been a lot of ass kissing
But I ain't trippin, I'm trill
That's why I'm posted with Khaled cause he real one
A hundred baby like a bill, Holla at me baby

[Chorus]

[Fat Joe]
Nah homie, you done got it f*cked up
You ain't got as much money as us (Nope)
We sent Campbell in cause he got goggles on
and he's pushing something far and it's f*cked
Now all I gotta do is push a little button quick fast
And the chopper come out of the stash
Yeah money ain't jewels motherf*cker you lose
I'll make you do the f*ck Sean Comb dance (Follow me now)
Who wanna come test the kid
Have your baby mama bless the team
shi*t, I ain't even know she could twerk it like that
She a motherf*ckin sex machine, Holla at me baby

[Chorus]

[Rick Ross]
Stuntin in a magnum ridin with my hat low
Forty-five magnum, barrel full of air holes
Dade County, represent, Dopeboy ever since
Know that I'ma veteran, Million dollar president
Rick Ross, big chips, AK's, flip clips
Off set rims on a rear six inch lips
Started on the benches, rose through the trenches
Now I'm the shi*t bitch, go and check your senses
Known for the benz's, Chrome on the bentleys
Smokin on the mentleys, Dade county, big cheese
Flip soft, whip that, Rick Ross rip that
Khaled go hard dawg, talk to em Paul Wall

[Chorus]

[Pitbull]
It's Mr. 3-0-5 A.K.A
Mr. Snort yay, spit rocks, made in day
I owe my future to
Last name Campbell, first name Luther
The gun shine stayed, well that shoulda
Bought him the crib, what it do, what it is
Bust a clip, flip a brick, hey buddy where's the lick?
That's all we talk about, well welcome to the south
We in, get our bread then we out, no doubt
Harlas and priests
These boys dirty, they'll f*ck your mother, sister, daughter and nieces
Oye da loca, mueve a la carada, oye da loca, even la meraya (?)

[Chorus]



Published On: 4/28/2006
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Hey, hey, little razorblade, girl you're so so dangerous
you say you wanna try and get away and thats just so obvious
but I've got the keys so lets put it into drive

Hey, hey, little razorblade, girl you're so so serious
you're only pretty when you walk away and you act oblivious
but I've got the keys so let's put it into drive
but don't call it a crush don't call it a crush, baby
you know I love you too much to be crushed like that

Give back my heart tonight I'm sick of never smiling 'cause you're so uptight
'cause we know its not alright but neither one of us is putting up a fight.
And you're right that its wrong to spend the night alone
you stand on the shore as I'm treading water
and wave as I sink like a stone

Hey, hey, little razorblade, girl you're so so obnoxious
this lucid dream is now reality and it makes me so anxious
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ANIMAL I HAVE BECOME- Three Days Grace
I can't escape this hell,
So many times I've tried,
But I'm still caged inside,
Somebody get me through this nightmare,
I can't control myself.
So what if you can see,
The darkest side of me,
No one will ever change this animal I have become.
Help me believe it's not the real me.
Somebody help me tame this animal.
(This animal. [x2])
I can't escape myself,( I cant escape myself)
So many times I've lied, ( so many times I've lied)
But there's still rage inside,
Somebody get me through this nightmare,
I can't control myself.
So what if you can see,
The darkest side of me,
No one will ever change this animal I have become.
Help me believe it's not the real me.
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become.
Help me believe it's not the real me,
Somebody help me tame this animal.
Somebody help me through this nightmare,
I can't control myself.
Somebody wake me from this nightmare,
I can't escape this hell.
(This animal. [x7])
So what if you can see,
The darkest side of me,
No one will ever change this animal I have become.
Help me believe it's not the real me.
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become.
Help me believe it's not the real me,
Somebody help me tame this animal.
This animal I have become.


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**BLEEDING MASCARA**--Atreyu
A wraith with an angel’s body.
A demon with a smile of gold.
You soul-sucker.
I won’t become like you.
A killer with the perfect weapons,
crystal eyes and a heart of coal.
You soul-sucker.
I won’t lose myself in you.

Look how pretty she is, when she falls down.
Now there’s no beauty in bleeding mascara. lips are quivering
like a withering rose, she’s back again.

What the f*ck do you think love means?
It’s more than words and more than feelings
sucking me dry. Is my marrow that sweet?
Your dead lovers have left a trail of broken hearts and misspent hopes.
Sucking them dry. Does their marrow taste of
sweetness, Sweetness? I hope you choke.

Look how pretty she is, when she falls down.
Now there’s no beauty in bleeding mascara. Lips are quivering
like a withering rose, she’s back again, shes back a, shes back again shes back

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I'M NOT OKAY (I PROMISE)--My Chemical Romance
Well if you wanted honesty,
That's all you had to say
I never want to let you down or have you go,
It's better off this way!
For all the dirty looks,
The photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay,
I'm not okay,
I'm not okay,
You wear me out.

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again, you sing the words
But don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time,
Take a good hard look!

I'm not okay,
I'm not okay,
I'm not okay,
You wear me out.

Forget about the dirty looks,
The photographs your boyfriend took,
You said you'd read me like a book,
But the pages all are torn and frayed!

I'm okay...
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me,
because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this.
I'm okay!
(Trust me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay,
I'm not o-f*cking-kay !
I'm not okay,
I'm not okay!
Bleeding Through - The Truth CD
*Kill To Believe- Bleeding Through*
Now what do you want from me?
When I've sacrificed my heart so you can be set free
And time will never cure this disease
I'm only left with tired arms to stop from drowning

This, This is loveless
Love, Your love is hopeless ohhh

what do you want from me?
When I've sacrificed my heart so you can be set free

This, This is loveless
Love, Your love is hopeless

Do you remember
On that night I couldn't find the words to say I'm sorry
and If you recall that night you ripped my heart right out
Before saying i loved you
Do you believe in this?
Do you believe in me?
If you believed in love
Would you believe in me?

So what will you take from me?
I'm the man with out a soul, a soul for you to seek
And time will only cure your disease
I'm only left with tired arms to stop from drowning.

This, This is loveless
Love, Your love is hopeless

Do you you remember
On that night I couldn't find the words to say I'm sorry
and If you recall that night you ripped my heart right out
Before saying i loved you
Do you believe in this?
Do you believe in me?
If you believed in love
Would you believe in me?

Believe in me
I've emptied my soul
Believe in me.
I've killed this disease now
Time to shatter your heart
Bring you to your knees
I've, I've found the strength to fight on
and stop the bleeding, And Ive stopped the bleeding

Do you you remember
On that night I couldn't find the words to say I'm sorry
and If you recall that night you ripped my heart right out
Before saying i loved you
Do you believe in this?
Do you believe in me?

You're killing, you're not the same to me now got to kill to believe

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**Hate Me**- Blue October
I have to block out thoughts of you, so i don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home

There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months, it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so f*cking far away that I’ll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And when the sad hard eyes say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand

And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away, just make it stop!”
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How could you did this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you



Published On: 4/24/2006
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My Blog: Rose Tears
By: bluekiss


A teardrop falls

From a drooping rose petal.

It falls to the shadows

Where no one hears it fall.

No one understands,

Why would a rose cry?

It’s made to be beautiful

Not weep in the shadows

With no comfort,

But the steady fall of tears.

It stands away from the world.

The hope of its life drains away.

It feels hopeless and lost.

It sees no silver lining

In the clouds that suffocate

Its lonely heart.

It wishes the desolate abyss

Would sallow it whole,

Cut off its loneliness.

It doesn’t want to droop anymore,

And still misses the days

When it was still a deep, deep

Red Rose.

by me



Published On: 4/13/2006
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 If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional - only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain.I don’t know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, you’re reading it, and that is good. I can assume that you are here because you are troubled and considering ending your life. If it were possible, I would prefer to be there with you at this moment, to sit with you and talk, face to face and heart to heart. But since that is not possible, we will have to make do with this.I have known a lot of people who have wanted to kill themselves, so I have some small idea of what you might be feeling. I know that you might not be up to reading a long book, so I am going to keep this short. While we are together here for the next five minutes, I have five simple, practical things I would like to share with you. I won’t argue with you about whether you should kill yourself. But I assume that if you are thinking about it, you feel pretty bad.Well, you’re still reading, and that’s very good. I’d like to ask you to stay with me for the rest of this page. I hope it means that you’re at least a tiny bit unsure, somewhere deep inside, about whether or not you really will end your life. Often people feel that, even in the deepest darkness of despair. Being unsure about dying is okay and normal. The fact that you are still alive at this minute means you are still a little bit unsure. It means that even while you want to die, at the same time some part of you still wants to live. So let’s hang on to that, and keep going for a few more minutes.Start by considering this statement:“Suicide is not chosen; it happenswhen pain exceeds resources for coping with pain.” That’s all it’s about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights... no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could. Don’t accept it if someone tells you, “that’s not enough to be suicidal about.” There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain.When pain exceeds pain-coping resources, suicidal feelings are the result. Suicide is neither wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. It is simply an imbalance of pain versus coping resources.You can survive suicidal feelings if you do either of two things: (1) find a way to reduce your pain, or (2) find a way to increase your coping resources. Both are possible.Now I want to tell you five things to think about.1 You need to hear that people do get through this -- even people who feel as badly as you are feeling now. Statistically, there is a very good chance that you are going to live. I hope that this information gives you some sense of hope. 2 Give yourself some distance. Say to yourself, “I will wait 24 hours before I do anything.” Or a week. Remember that feelings and actions are two different things - just because you feel like killing yourself, doesn’t mean that you have to actually do it right this minute. Put some distance between your suicidal feelings and suicidal action. Even if it’s just 24 hours. You have already done it for 5 minutes, just by reading this page. You can do it for another 5 minutes by continuing to read this page. Keep going, and realize that while you still feel suicidal, you are not, at this moment, acting on it. That is very encouraging to me, and I hope it is to you. 3 People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain. Remember that relief is a feeling. And you have to be alive to feel it. You will not feel the relief you so desperately seek, if you are dead. 4 Some people will react badly to your suicidal feelings, either because they are frightened, or angry; they may actually increase your pain instead of helping you, despite their intentions, by saying or doing thoughtless things. You have to understand that their bad reactions are about their fears, not about you.But there are people out there who can be with you in this horrible time, and will not judge you, or argue with you, or send you to a hospital, or try to talk you out of how badly you feel. They will simply care for you. Find one of them. Now. Use your 24 hours, or your week, and tell someone what’s going on with you. It is okay to ask for help. Try:Send an anonymous e-mail to The Samaritans Call 1-800-SUICIDE in the U.S. Teenagers, call Covenant House NineLine, 1-800-999-9999 Look in the front of your phone book for a crisis line Call a psychotherapist Carefully choose a friend or a minister or rabbi, someone who is likely to listen But don’t give yourself the additional burden of trying to deal with this alone. Just talking about how you got to where you are, releases an awful lot of the pressure, and it might be just the additional coping resource you need to regain your balance. 5 Suicidal feelings are, in and of themselves, traumatic. After they subside, you need to continue caring for yourself. Therapy is a really good idea. So are the various self-help groups available both in your community and on the Internet. Well, it’s been a few minutes and you’re still with me. I’m really glad.Since you have made it this far, you deserve a reward. I think you should reward yourself by giving yourself a gift. The gift you will give yourself is a coping resource. Remember, back up near the top of the page, I said that the idea is to make sure you have more coping resources than you have pain. So let’s give you another coping resource, or two, or ten...! until they outnumber your sources of pain. Now, while this page may have given you some small relief, the best coping resource we can give you is another human being to talk with. If you find someone who wants to listen, and tell them how you are feeling and how you got to this point, you will have increased your coping resources by one. Hopefully the first person you choose won’t be the last. There are a lot of people out there who really want to hear from you. It’s time to start looking around for one of them.Now: I’d like you to call someone.And while you’re at it, you can still stay with me for a bit. Check out these sources of online help.Additional things to read at this site:How serious is our condition? ...“he only took 15 pills, he wasn’t really serious...” if others are making you feel like you’re just trying to get attention... read this.Why is it so hard for us to recover from being suicidal? ...while most suicidal people recover and go on, others struggle with suicidal thoughts and feelings for months or even years. Suicide and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).Recovery from grief and loss ...has anyone significant in your life recently died? You would be in good company... many suicidal people have recently suffered a loss.The stigma of suicide that prevents suicidal people from recovering: we are not only fighting our own pain, but the pain that others inflict on us... and that we ourselves add to. Stigma is a huge complicating factor in suicidal feelings.Resources about depression ...if you are suicidal, you are most likely experiencing some form of depression. This is good news, because depression can be treated, helping you feel better.Do you know someone who is suicidal... or would you like to be able to help, if the situation arises? Learn what to do, so that you can make the situation better, not worse.Handling a call from a suicidal person ...a very helpful ten-point list that you can print out and keep near your phone or computer.What can I do to help someone who may be suicidal? ...a helpful guide, includes Suicide Warning Signs.Other online sources of help: The Samaritans - trained volunteers are available 24 hours a day to listen and provide emotional support. You can call a volunteer on the phone, or e-mail them. Confidential and non-judgmental. Short of writing to a psychotherapist, the best source of online help.Talk to a therapist online - Read this page to find out how.Depression support group online: Walkers in Darkness - Please note: this is a very big group, but amidst all the chatter (and occasional bickering), it is possible to find someone who will hear you and offer support.Psych Central has a good listing of online resources for suicide and other mental health needs.Still feel bad? These jokes might relieve the pressure for a minute or two.If you want help finding a human being to talk with in person, who can help you live through this, try reading this article about how to Choose a Competent Counselor.Sometimes people need additional private help before they are ready to talk with someone in person. Here are three books you could read on your own in private. I know from personal experience that each one has helped someone like you.Suicide: The Forever Decision by Paul G. Quinnett, PhD (Continuum, 1989, $8.95, ISBN 0-8264-0391-3). Frank and helpful conversation with a therapist who cares. Order the bookChoosing to Live: how to defeat suicide through cognitive therapy by Thomas E. Ellis PsyD and Cory F. Newman PhD (New Harbinger Publications, 1996, $12.95, ISBN 1-57224-056-3). Another conversational book with practical help for suicidal persons. Order the bookHow I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me: One Person's Guide to Suicide Prevention by Susan Rose Blauner (William Morrow, 2002, $17.47, ISBN 0066211212). A very practical survival guide by an actual survivor. Order the book   I make no profit whatever on the books. Every penny received is given to The Samaritans to support their lifesaving work. The volunteers give generously of themselves, but it costs them money to continue operating and saving lives - money for facilities, phones and computers. Money is a reality. They need it; we give it. Sending them this small donation is our way of thanking them and helping them continue to help others. If you would like to know where the money goes, visit the Samaritans website. If you prefer not to make a donation to the Samaritans, take the book information above to your local bookstore and order the books there instead. If you would like to make a donation directly to the Samaritans, click here.Out of the Nightmare: Recovery From Depression And Suicidal Pain, by David L. Conroy, PhD (New Liberty Press, 1991, ISBN 1-879204-00-2). Unfortunately out of print; sometimes used copies become available. As if suicidal persons weren't feeling bad enough already, our thoughtless attitudes can cause them to feel guilt and shame, and keep them from getting help in time. Dr. Conroy blasts apart the myths of suicide, and looks at suicidal feelings from the inside, in a down to earth, non-judgmental way. This is a book that will save lives by washing away the stigma of suicide and opening the door to a real way out of the nightmare. More info and reviewsWould you like to print out this page? Here is a plain black-on-white version that should print more easily.

Published On: 4/5/2006
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Well... the Olympic Snowboard Parallel Gaint Slalom is now over.  Here are your results.

For the mens:

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Gold Medal winner Philipp Schoch (R) of Switzerland and Silver Medal winner Simon Schoch (L) of Switzerland (Photo by Donald Miralle/Getty Images)

1. Philipp Schoch (SUI)
2. Simon Schoch (SUI)
3. Sigfried Grabner (AUT)

For the woman's...


Gold medal winner Daniela Meuli of Switzerland celebrates in the Womens Snowboard Parallel Giant Slalom Finals (Photo by Clive Mason/Getty Images)
Gold medal winner Daniela Meuli of Switzerland celebrates in the Womens Snowboard Parallel Giant Slalom Finals (Photo by Clive Mason/Getty Images)

1. Daniela Meuli (SUI)
2. Amelie Kober (GER)
3. Rosey Fletcher (USA)


Published On: 2/23/2006
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My Blog: poem
By: she-devil_7842


Roses are red, voilets are blue, god made me pretty what the hell happened to you?



Published On: 2/13/2006
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SEX IS A TEMPTATION
CAUSED BY A SENSATION
WHEN A MAN PUTS HIS DICTATION
IN A WOMAN'S VENTILATION
DO YOU GET MY CONVERSATION?
OR DO YOU NEED A DEMONSTRATION?

SKY IS BLUE
WATER IS WET
I'LL MAKE YOU CUM
I'LL MAKE YOU SWEAT
PRESSED AGAINST MY BODY
MOVIN UP AND DOWN
SLOWLY BUT FIRMLY
WE WILL MOVE THE GROUND

SEX IS EVIL
SEX IS A GAME
ONE NIGHT OF PASSION
NINE MONTHS OF PAIN
BABY'S A BASTARD
FATHERS A GIT
ALL BECAUSE THE CONDOM SPLIT!

SEX IS LIKE MATH
YOU SUBTRACT THE CLOTHES
ADD THE BED
DIVIDE THE LEGS
THEN MULTIPLY!

ROSES ARE RED
GRASS IS GREEN
OPEN YOUR LEGS
AND I'LL FILL YOU WITH CREAM

HICKERY DICKERY DOC
DIS BYTCH WAS SUCKIN MY COCK
THE CLOCK STRUCK TWO
I DUMPED MY GOO
AND DUMPED HER AT DA END OF THE BLOCK!!!

SEX IS GOOD
SEX IS FINE
DOGGY STYLE OR 69
JUST FOR FUN
OR GETTING PAID
EVERYONE LIKES GETTING LAID

SEX IS EVIL
SEX IS A SIN
SINS ARE FORGIVEN
SO STICK IT IN!!!

                                                     ~Brought To U By: sh0rtybabe
p.s. if you think this is gross or whatever.. just remember this will all happen to you sometime in life if you like it or not! HAHA later
--srry im tipsy woot hehee
friend says hi too.. she had too much.. !! aaah.. well ya bye

aight aight this guy Free_style_ass_kicker gets props for -
"it is a mans oblagation to stick his boneration in a womens seperation this penatration increses the population of the younger generation" Ayayeahz!


Published On: 2/2/2006
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He Handed Her 12 Roses. 11 Real. 1 Fake.

He Said I'll Love you Until The Last One Dies...She Gladley Accepted Them...But When She

Grabbed Them. She Said

"One Of These Are Fake!"

He Said, "Excatley. That's Becuase I Will Love You Forever"



Published On: 1/25/2006
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hey i just got my first tatoo. it is the one in my mugshot. isnt it hot???



Published On: 1/24/2006
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LOS ANGELES (AP) - Kobe Bryant kept shooting, from all over the court and from every angle.

The Los Angeles Lakers' star scored a staggering 81 points Sunday night against the Toronto Raptors in a 122-104 win. Only Wilt Chamberlain's 100-point game stands ahead of him.

"It just happened, man" Bryant said. "It really hasn't, like, set in for me. It's about the 'W,' that's why I turned it on. It turned into something special.

"To sit here and say I grasp what happened, that would be lying. Not even in my dreams."

The NBA's leading scorer left to a standing ovation with 4.2 seconds remaining, having shot 28-of-46 from the floor, including 7-of-13 from 3-point range and 18-of-20 from the foul line.

With the fans at Staples Center chanting "MVP! MVP!" Bryant made two free throws with 43.4 seconds remaining for his final points. He scored 27 points in the third quarter, 28 in the fourth.

"It feels great to put on a great show here," he said.

Chamberlain scored 100 points for Philadelphia against the New York Knicks at Hershey, Pa., on March 2, 1962, making 36-of-63 from the field and 28-of-32 from the foul line while playing all 48 minutes.

Chamberlain had 59 points in the second half - the only player with more points in a half than Bryant's 55 after halftime in this game.

Chamberlain's second-highest total was 78 against the Lakers in three overtimes on Dec. 8, 1961.

Elgin Baylor held the previous franchise record of 71 points at New York on Nov. 15, 1960. Lakers assistant Kareem Abdul-Jabbar, the NBA's all-time leading scorer, saw that game, too.

"Elgin's game was an incredible performance, also. I don't think there's any comparison. Elgin did it without 3-point lines. His game was attacking the hoop and hitting jumpers inside 20 feet. Kobe's range is unreal, and he does it his way," Abdul-Jabbar said.

"It was a real treat. His ability to shoot from long range and also attack the hoop, split the defense and get in close for opportunities near the basket is unique. He's made a niche for himself and he deserves it."

Michael Jordan's career high was 69 points, and only four players had ever scored more than 70 - Chamberlain, Baylor, David Thompson and David Robinson.

The 27-year-old Bryant made it five. His previous career high was 62 points during a 112-90 victory over Dallas last month - he sat out the fourth quarter because of the one-sided nature of the game.

"I was just determined. I was just locked in, tuned into what was going on out there," Bryant said. "These points tonight mattered. We needed them. The points I put in the basket were instrumental. It means a lot more."

Bryant raised his scoring average to an NBA-leading 35.9 points this season.

"I never imagined I would see history like that," said Devean George, a teammate of Bryant's with the Lakers for 6 1/2 seasons. "I can't tell you where that came from. He just kept attacking, attacking, attacking - every time he got the ball."

Bryant played nearly 42 minutes, going the entire second half until being lifted by coach Phil Jackson.

Jackson coached Jordan and the Chicago Bulls to six championships in the 1990s and the Lakers, with Bryant and Shaquille O'Neal, to three more titles, from 2000-02.

"That was something to behold," Jackson said. "It was another level. I've seen some remarkable games, but I've never seen one like that before."

Bryant's performance came on the same night the NBA had its highest-scoring game in 11 years when Seattle beat Phoenix 152-149 in two overtimes. The last 300-point game in the league came when Dallas beat Houston 156-147 in two overtimes on April 11, 1995, according to the Elias Sports Bureau.

"You're sitting and watching, and it's like a miracle unfolding in front of your eyes and you can't accept it," Lakers owner Jerry Buss said. "Somehow, the brain won't work. The easiest way to look at it is everybody remembers every 50-point game they ever saw. He had 55 in the second half."

Lamar Odom's 3-pointer with 7:04 remaining gave the Lakers a 100-93 lead, and Bryant scored 30 seconds later to give him 61 points and his team a nine-point advantage. The Raptors didn't pose a serious threat after that.

Bryant scored all but 15 of the Lakers' 42 points in the third quarter, shooting 11-of-15 including 4-of-5 from 3-point range. Six of his points came during a 12-0 run to finish the period, giving Los Angeles a 91-85 lead.

The Lakers outscored the Raptors 38-14 to finish the third quarter to go ahead for good. They trailed by as many as 18 points early in the period, angering Bryant.

"He was ticked off," Odom said.

When asked what Bryant said at that stage, Odom replied: "Nothing. That's when it's bad."

Bryant scored 51 points after the Raptors took a 71-53 lead. It was 63-49 at halftime.

"The thing about him that is most amazing is that he is relentless," Raptors coach Sam Mitchell said. "We played man-to-man, box-in-one and zone. We tried to put smaller guys on him to deny him the ball.

"I saw that game he had against Dallas where he scored 62, what more can you say?"

Smush Parker added 13 points and Chris Mihm had 12 points and six rebounds for the Lakers.

Mike James led Toronto with 26 points and 10 assists. Chris Bosh added 18 points and eight rebounds and Jalen Rose scored 17 points for the Raptors.

Notes

Bryant scored a season-low 11 points in the Lakers' 102-91 victory over the Raptors in Toronto last month. He had 14 in the first quarter of this game. ... Bryant has led the Lakers in scoring in the last 21 games in which he's played. He entered with an NBA-leading 34.8-point average, and is averaging 45.5 points in 10 games since sitting out a two-game suspension. ... Toronto C Rafael Araujo, who has made 30 starts this season, missed his second straight game and third of the season because of a sore right shoulder. ... Bryant made his first five foul shots before missing late in the second quarter, snapping his streak of consecutive made free throws at 62. Michael Williams made an NBA-record 93 straight for Minnesota in 1993. ... Bryant received a technical foul with 10:44 left - shortly after being accidentally struck above the right eye.



Published On: 1/23/2006
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