
today is goin by real slow, first day back since christmas break...

tuesday night was so bad...suicide was runnin through my mind the hole night...getting worse every second that went by...it was to the point of me wonderin WHY im here..WHY no one wants to be with me..WHY no one wants me in their life..WHY im going through so much pain..WHY im sittin here talkin to you to this day...

WHY do i wake up knowing my day is going to be all down hill from the moment i woke up...and WHY IN THE HELL DO I TAKE ALL THIS PAIN...WHY dont i just end it...WHY do i take it....am i not attractive am i not good enough for anyone,why am i still here...

why havent i just killed my self when i had the courage to??is it too late to do it???is there SOMEONE out there that would like to be with me, to make me forget about all this, to make me happy for at least ONCE..to make me feel wanted and needed

...and to LOVE AND BE HELD EVERY WAKING MOMENT....please help me before its to late....
Im sorry, IM SO SORRY!!!

