Poems

Broke down into tears again,
have to...

..need to learn to control this.

I can't allow myself to get attached,

so why are you doing this to me?

luring me in, until I can't turn away,

begging myself to go..

...and you're begging me to stay.

You push me away...

...then you pull me apart.

and all at once you surround me,

...deceive me,

it's breaking my heart.

Don't you realize how you turn me on,
just as quickly as you turn me away.
you're so easily trusted...
yet I don't believe that you'll stay.

The other day I cracked a beer,

the sound it made buzzed through my ears.
I can't resist that golden taste,
it puts a smile on my face.

Everytime I'm tired and stressed,
I put a new brew to the test.
Don't think I've ever been upset,

I haven't had a poor beer yet.

Screw the whiskey and the rum,
it's only beer when the day is done.

And as for coolers, I'll tell you what,
now there's a drink for your average slut.

So join me friends, we'll have some brews,

a tribute to the best of booze.

blank page,

white ink.

clouded mind,

can't think.

dark room,

black heart.

hot tears,

a slow start.

nothing left,

empty soul.

steep cliff,

deep hole.

restless night,

freezing air.

usless thoughts,

cold stare.

blank page,

white ink.

clouded mind,

can't think.

I'm always dying to escape from reality,
just to enter into a blissful sense of confusion.
To be confined by utter unawareness,
and entwined in my mind's own illusion.

I long for my problems to appear meaningless,

and to relieve my body of anxious thoughts,
escaping from my lips in twirling, thick smoke,

looping and twisting my mind into knots.

The moments seem slower and the sky; darker,

I begin my descent into a half-concious state,

but it doesn't bother me that I've lost all control,
I just let the high take me until it's too late.

And now I find that I can't turn my back on it,

the only thing that offers escape from this hell,

such a simple drug makes me weak all at once,

a few drags from a joint and a word of farewell.